Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
This is BoCo in the Spring
Yes this is home, these are the views that I see every day! Amazing that I am blessed this much in Rural Missouri!
Laundry Day reminds me of how much I love my kids.
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Today as I strung our laundry my clothesline, I remembered
how many times I have washed, dried, and smelled my children’s clothes….there
is nothing lovelier than the sweetness of your own children. I have been criticized before for saying that
it was not my intention to ever have children, this statement is true. As a teenager and young adult I did not want
to have children…I had other plans, but for some reason today, I cannot
remember what those plans were.
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Motherhood has changed me greatly; yesterday I stood in my
old high school gym and watched Lesse dribble the basketball down the same
court that I played on as a child. I
could not help, but wipe the tear from my eye, I love being a MOM. I love every minute of watching my children
succeed, watching them learn, watching them love, and crazy as it sounds
watching them fight.
I may say that I never intended to be a mom, because that is
true, but God had other plans and when my name was drawn for motherhood, I
stepped up and took the challenge.
Day after day we do not see eye to eye, you are both currently grounded from you IPods, frustrated that I won’t let you have that last soda in the fridge, and attempting convince PaPa that mommy is mean. I smile smartly at you, as I know that you are just being my children and acting exactly how I expect you to act.
I know in the near future we are going to have many disagreements and there may be a day that you question how much your momma loves you. Today I am going to tell you how much I love you!
I love you so much that I climb your bunk beds to feed your fish that I despise.
I love you so much that I often roll over in my bed and find racecars, Tonka trucks, and tractors lined up next to me and just smile.
I love you so much that I have not wore a normal color of nail polish in good while…neon pink seems to be my new style.
I love you so much that when I hear you giggle at 11 pm I may sigh aloud, but I secretly giggle inside.
I love you so much that I mop the bathroom twice a night every night….with bubble bath water.
I love you so much that I often smell like sweaty little boy and mangos (mango is Lesse’s current perfume choice).I love you so much that I often wear mud prints from your dog all over me.
I love you so much that instead of driving our truck up the road I often drive the tractor so that I can see you smile.
I love you so much that while you sleep I work, so while you play I can watch.
I love you so much that I secretly hate pop tarts, zebra cakes, nutty butter bars, but I eat them anyways.
I love you so much that I cannot remember to text my own friends, but I have text your friends every night this week to tell them you are grounded and will have to text them next week, but I will give you their message.I love you so much that I cannot remember the last time I read a book that had more than 10 pages and less than 10 pictures.
I love you so much that I know what is burdening your heart, I am praying for the same answer, and I cry because of your heartache. Kiddos, life is not fair, being a parent is hard….I wish that I could make things be easy for you. I am doing the best I can at being a mommy, I am so proud of how strong, honest, and loving you two have become. One day we will together look back on all the chaos that surrounds us, wipe our brow, and say we conquered this and we did it with dignity! Love you bunches,
Mommy
People are not disposable….
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It is no secret that this past few years has been nothing but a
train wreck straight from hell. I often
think to myself that I will one day wake up and this will have all been a dream
and I will step back and will have my happy little family back again. Then I slap myself to reality and remember
that I must remember the good days to get through the bad days.
I have not wrote much about my divorce for several months,
because every time I would say something I lived in fear that it could be
considered slander, or every time I posted something people would say I was
whining, bashing, or just being a baby.
Today, I have decided to speak up and speak loudly. I am NOT whining, bashing, or being a baby
the ending of my marriage was nearly devastating. I loved my husband with all my heart, I think
many of my readers can recall how I spoke about him, posted photos of him and
the kids, and I was always anxious for him to come home at the end of the week. He was the one person I thought would always
have my back, and then I realized that Satan could and had pulled him
away. There were times over the past
year I would see glimpse of hope or the “old” him, and then they were always
followed by the “other” him.
10 Blessings of Moving
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| I think we will just call this place HOME! |
Today, I was reminded all over again of all the special blessings in my life. I know God is gently reminding me that while this storm (my marriage ending) is rough, I have been blessed more than I will ever know!
1. My Family - when in need my family is there to help, pray, and give motivation!
2. Friends - my amazing friends that covered us in prayer, did some heavy lifting, or helped entertain kids...YOU ALL ROCK!
3. COFFEE - Dear Lord, thank you for all the Coffee Bean Farmers!
4. Hot shower - yes it was the most amazing feeling tonight to take a steamy hot shower!
5. Purina Protein Tubs - Blog post coming soon to explain this!
6. Comfy Shoes - oh the relief of my sore feet!
7. Laughter - many laughs today as we packed, moved, and giggled at others expense.
8. Ice - it seemed cool today, but ice cold drinks tasted so good!
9. Unorganized Stuff - it is fun to find tomato soup in my sock drawer....packing can be fun!
10. God's Guidance - this week has been trying, exhausting, heartbreaking, but no matter where I turned, the pain I felt, I knew I had God on my side!
God Bless you all, thank you for all your prayers, and Good Night!
Becky, Lesse, & D- man (aka FARMERS)
Happy Holidays 2012
Happy Holidays from our gang to yours! May your days be filled with love, laughter, and a few comical moments!
Love,
Becky, Lesse, & D-man
Heaven Just Gained our Best Angel
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| Christmas 2011 |
Many of our readers have heard us speak of our beloved
GaGa. We have been road tripping to GaGa for six years, spent many hours on the phone with GaGa, drawing pictures with or for GaGa, and teaching
our GaGa how to make the perfect funny face.
Tonight our GaGa finished growing her Angel Wings as Mr
D-man puts it and is now painting rainbows all over Heaven.
While my heart aches as I have just lost my best friend, my
secret keeper, and the person who taught me many of the important things in
life; I also know GaGa is dancing on the streets of gold.
We appreciate all the prayers, thoughtfulness,
love, and everything else that everyone is sending our way. I can never put into words how awesome and
supportive you all are and how much I appreciate you!
Thank You & May God Bless you all!
~Becky, Lesse, & D-man
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